For You "..."

For You "..."
Just because sometimes I lough
Doesn't mean I'm happy
Just because I have to say yes
Doesn't mean I agree
Just because I don't often apologize
Doesn't mean that deep down I'm not sorry
And just because you're my daddy
Doesn't mean that you know me or how I wanna be
For all this years you've made me see
The distance you're putting between us daddy
And the way i feel about it
I can only keep it on my diary
I hope one day things will get pretty
So we can be again a familly
..and when you read this daddy
..Just know that writing it wasn't that easy


If I could thank god for one thing, that would be having a familly..and if I could ask god for something, that would be being closer to my daddy
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# Posté le jeudi 04 décembre 2008 10:39

Modifié le jeudi 11 décembre 2008 07:41

I am my own fear

I am my own fear
Sitting in a dark corner
Images keep coming to my head over and over
I'm having back memories of what i did
So many secrets I've never shared
Made me think what if I didin't make what I've already made
Cause I'm still paying a prize I thought I payed
The prize of being always afraid
Afraid to get close to someone
Afraid to let go and stay alone again
Afraid to take a look arround and see
Afraid to make something belongs to me
Afraid of this fear and what could it be
Afraid to accept it as my desteny
Keeping on to my life is hard
Even the options I'm having are so bad
A matter of how much life seems happy from the outside
It only represents for me how much its so sad
This fear insid me
Is standing like a tree
An old, dry one but so near
Always sending sounds of fear
wherever I go its here
getting even closer and so real
But now it becomes clear
I am my own fear

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# Posté le samedi 04 octobre 2008 11:51

Modifié le mardi 28 octobre 2008 10:06

i'm sorry

i'm sorry
I told you I'll be there for you
I promised I'll take care of you
Having your love and your trust
Was far beyond what I want
But unfortunately that was just the start
Cos I was the one who made us fall apart
I'm sorry for not being there
I'm sorry for not being aware
I'm sorry for disappointing you
I'm sorry for not doing what I promised to do
I'm sorry for messing up the whole thing
I'm sorry for leaving your heart broking
I'm sorry for not being the person you were looking for
I'm sorry for being just me...so selfish nothing more
I'm not asking forgiveness
And I'm not making more promises
I just want you to believe
That I'm so sorry before you leave

I'm sorry
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# Posté le samedi 14 juin 2008 12:10

Modifié le mardi 28 octobre 2008 09:59

sorry mom and dad i love you both...but you must get the truth

sorry mom and dad i love you both...but you must get the truth

It feels so bad hearing mom and dad yelling
It hurts a lot seeing them fighting

And it's a hard thing staying there watching
Two people you care about
Two people you'll do everything they ask for without a doubt
Yelling like they have never been together
How can I respect you both when I see how you disrespect
each other?
How can I love you both when there is no love...no longer?
How can I be proud of you mommy?
When you blame us for your problems
with daddy
How can I be proud of you daddy?
When I feel ashamed
every times you treat us like shit
especially mommy?
How can I be proud of you?
When I take responsibility of everything you do
How can I be proud of you?
When I'm the one who needs care not you
So... mom and dad I want you to know
That if I could runaway that would be the first thing I do
And I'm living with you just because Ihave
to
I feel sorry but I thank you both for messing up my life I really do
I don't want you to feel guilty...its too late
And accepting
you as my parents is something I work so hard to appreciate




I love you mom and dad but if there is no peace I don't care if we're poor or rich

I don't care where we spend our summer

,or how many times we go shopping

or anything else because these things are worthless if you two can't stand each other.


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# Posté le mercredi 11 juin 2008 12:13

Modifié le mercredi 25 juin 2008 12:16

........(......It.....)........

........(......It.....)........

Have yOu ever wanted sOmething?
SOmething yOu can't ask fOr
SOmething you can't live withOut
Well...I did...and I dO dream Of it
I always think abOut it
Imagining hOw my life is gOnna be sO much easier with it
HOw much I'm gOnna be happy trying it
Imagining One day
When I'll have it
I'll be the happiest girl feeling it
It's true that I dOn't knOw sO much abOut it
But the Only thing I knOw
Is that I'll never...ever stOp lOOking fOr it.

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# Posté le mardi 27 mai 2008 13:44

Modifié le mardi 28 octobre 2008 09:13

curiosity

curiosity
Being curious is a nature of the human been, means that the person has a desire to discover, to know, to figure out, and I've got so many things in my mind, so many questions; I need to define everything surrounds me, to explain everything going on, even that I know it might be impossible, I know I'll never be able to, I know it will be just a waste of time, but I cant stop trying, I cant just live without being curious, I cant live a life without knowing what does it represent. Just for one reason...curiosity.
Every time we try to understand what life exactly means or represents, we start asking too many questions and getting deeper and deeper, but we've never thought that life might be this whole questions, we've never thought that life might be every single second we waist trying to understand what does it mean, it might be the only thing we can explain by actions instead words.
Getting the meaning of life may help us choose what kind of questions we must ask, what kind of meanings we should look for, it specifies the way we handle things, the way we act...the way we live.

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# Posté le vendredi 20 juin 2008 13:11

Modifié le mercredi 25 juin 2008 12:15

des marionettes

des marionettes
On é comme dé poupé on se fé bouger par lé conditions de la vie
Et celle-ci on pourra jamé la contrôler
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# Posté le jeudi 08 mai 2008 12:28